The weekend started with work throwing after work drinks on Friday night, we had lots of wine, then
faux champers, more wine and then a small group of us thought to go into the city and have a couple of drinks at Loft Bar, another bottle of wine between 4, then another bottle which I sat out of, food was on the agenda,
iThai one of my favourite Thai restaurants in Sydney. The food was great, another bottle of wine shared, the 2 girls decided they have had enough and planned to go home, one of the guys from work and I said 'lets go to
Minskys!' we sang and danced until the early hours. Saturday I met a couple of girlfriends in
Paddington to attend the Little
Paddington Fashion Festival, later I met friends for dinner at the Rocks before going to my favourite place in Sydney, The Basement to see Professor Groove perform and today I went to The Fifties Fair, photos taken and apparently going to be on ABC news. Spent the evening chilling at home and reflecting on my weekend.
The raw story...
Drank way too much at work, said some inappropriate things to work colleague, hoping no one will remember. Went to Minsky's with one of the guys at work and Navy Boy met me there, while Navy Boy had his arms around me I spotted R across the room, he was there with another girl, I told Navy Boy and my work mate what was going on, Navy Boy said he'll leave if I want, he threw his arms around me, kissed me and sang and danced a bit before leaving, my work mate was telling me that we should leave, he could tell the affect of R and the new girl was having on me. So drunk I said that I'm not going to change my night because of him. I was messaging the guy I've been dating saying he should come to Minsky's apparently he was too tired. My work mate kissed me, I pulled away within a second and said 'just because you think I'm an easy target' he knows my secret not through my telling. We danced more and then I had to leave... I cried going down the stairs, the whole situation reminds me of the night in January when R told me 'just friends'. Waiting for a cab his arm around me for comfort, he said I should go back to his place, I did. I slept there. Just slept there with a comforting arm around me. I struggled on Saturday at the Fashion Festival and it was pretty much a non event... I went home for a cat nap - I woke up to a message from D, yes, D, somehow I found out that he was free and
invited him to join me. Why!? I met my friends for dinner at the rocks which was lovely, we went to the Basement and Professor Groove was AWESOME I was dancing and drinking cocktails, D messaged me and he came to drive me home. I NEVER expected to wake up next to him ever again. I also didn't expect to receive a message from him today saying how great it was to see me. Today was the fifties fair, the polka dot dress I wanted to wear I couldn't zip up... I was on the lookout while I was there, The American I am 'dating' told me this week that he was going to be
there with his friends, no 'well see each other there' no 'maybe we should go together' no 'since I'll be
there you and your friend can join us' he also said he was going to Victoria Rooms for cocktails afterward, I've said that's where I had my 30
th and how much I love it there... Nothing, not even a text from him to see if I made it there. Since I've been home I've tried to keep
myself busy, too busy to eat to. I'm fat and a disgrace.
