Am I upset? Maybe. Am I depressed? No.
I feel emotionless. Numb.
I've been working 7 days a week for the last 10 weeks. 1 day off, a public holiday that I spent trying to get over a hang over and entertain family in 30 degree heat.
I really thought I was getting on track, my not so new Monday - Friday job I've been in for just over 4 months I'm finally finding my feet (finance industry, no experience or qualifications in finance), I have a consistent Saturday/Sunday working contract, paying off my car is only 1 paycheque away, looking for a new home to buy - aiming for a January/February purchase, a couple of cute boys that I would like to get to know a little better.
All falling apart. Recently I found out I may be facing my second redundancy of the year, therefore possible job searching again, I can't continue looking for a unit (previous statement), boy I was interested in, not interested in me (see post about my weekend). To make matters worse I decided to jump on the scales last night, I'm 60.5kg! I've never looked like this. My clothes are getting tighter, my baggy jeans have become my "skinny" jeans!
I'm going to be very selfish for the next few weeks, well up until my birthday at least.
I feel emotionless. Numb.
I've been working 7 days a week for the last 10 weeks. 1 day off, a public holiday that I spent trying to get over a hang over and entertain family in 30 degree heat.
I really thought I was getting on track, my not so new Monday - Friday job I've been in for just over 4 months I'm finally finding my feet (finance industry, no experience or qualifications in finance), I have a consistent Saturday/Sunday working contract, paying off my car is only 1 paycheque away, looking for a new home to buy - aiming for a January/February purchase, a couple of cute boys that I would like to get to know a little better.
All falling apart. Recently I found out I may be facing my second redundancy of the year, therefore possible job searching again, I can't continue looking for a unit (previous statement), boy I was interested in, not interested in me (see post about my weekend). To make matters worse I decided to jump on the scales last night, I'm 60.5kg! I've never looked like this. My clothes are getting tighter, my baggy jeans have become my "skinny" jeans!
I'm going to be very selfish for the next few weeks, well up until my birthday at least.
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