I finally got my butt into gear and made it to the Oncologist on Monday 21st January. The news. I’m clear of cancer. I have 10’s of cists I need to keep an eye on…. Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake… That day, hearing that I don’t have an imminent expiry date is the turn around. I just want to live while I'm alive!*
*Obviously Bon Jovi song influenced the above, I did go to the concert on that night
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A phone call in the afternoon made my stomach sink. It was one of my mum’s work colleagues, my mum was taken to the Emergency Room due to abnormalities with her heart.
Mum is okay; she was out of hospital later that night. A blood clot in the lung, she was on a drippy thing and has medication. Instructions were to watch her diet and exercise a little more.
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Not one of my friends enquired about my appointment on Monday. It’s not although my friends didn’t know. This is something that has been on my mind for months. A dark dark cloud hovering over my everyday actions, shadows behind my insincere smile.
I felt so alone. I still feel empty although I know I should be dancing and throwing my arms around with glee…
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*Obviously Bon Jovi song influenced the above, I did go to the concert on that night
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A phone call in the afternoon made my stomach sink. It was one of my mum’s work colleagues, my mum was taken to the Emergency Room due to abnormalities with her heart.
Mum is okay; she was out of hospital later that night. A blood clot in the lung, she was on a drippy thing and has medication. Instructions were to watch her diet and exercise a little more.
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Not one of my friends enquired about my appointment on Monday. It’s not although my friends didn’t know. This is something that has been on my mind for months. A dark dark cloud hovering over my everyday actions, shadows behind my insincere smile.
I felt so alone. I still feel empty although I know I should be dancing and throwing my arms around with glee…
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* Post been sitting in drafts....
5 comments:
OMG Nat, I had no idea - that's great news. Damn straight - live while you're alive, for both you and your mum...
Are your friends maybe just awkward about asking you about this? Not because they don't care, but just that they have trouble expressing it? I witnessed something similar just before christmas when my friend's dad was killed in a horrible accident - the folk that came through as reliable were not the ones that she had originally thought would be there...
sorry, girl, I didn't know... good to hear you're all clear. what prompted the visit to the doc?
Take care of your ma!
That's great news that you've been given the all clear! I hope you're celebrating life, your way.
Sorry to hear about your mum, but also glad it wasn't more serious. One has to look at the bright side.
As for friends not asking, as upsetting as it is, it often is the way when it comes to serious things. And you'll find those you least expect to show their care, do. I tried to shrug it off when it happened to me, and that included my best friend, but I couldn't. Now I appreciate those who show they care over those who often have ‘excuses’.
That is good news, Nat. I've read on other blogs about depression after a cancer scare. You sound perfectly normal about it. I know some people don't want to bring those things up because they don't want to be a downer, but they do care. Trust.
so glad you're in the clear :)
It's bloody scary when a parent gets sick, even if it's just a suggestion of illness. hope it all keeps going okay.
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