Dinner and drinks at my temporary local last night with J, it’s been too long since we caught up over a drink, (don’t get me wrong we email and chat constantly throughout the day, we don’t miss a beat in each others lives…) I think we’ve been living parallel for as many years as we’ve known each other so it’s only expected that when we meet a man it’s around the same time and when we meet that guy we have similar feelings.
I agreed I will not write off Mr Leather Jacket/Sabre boy too early, I have a distinct pattern of dismissing men at their first sign of weakness.
There is already something bothering me, it’s so minor, not even worth mentioning. I’m overly content with being single and I really value my time. I must take a couple of deep breathes and ‘just let it happen’
Hey, why am I hypothesising about this, we agreed to see each other on Friday; my money is on an uncomfortable text cancellation...
I agreed I will not write off Mr Leather Jacket/Sabre boy too early, I have a distinct pattern of dismissing men at their first sign of weakness.
There is already something bothering me, it’s so minor, not even worth mentioning. I’m overly content with being single and I really value my time. I must take a couple of deep breathes and ‘just let it happen’
Hey, why am I hypothesising about this, we agreed to see each other on Friday; my money is on an uncomfortable text cancellation...
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You say you won't write it off too early but then say you don't have much faith anyway. So what happens? Even if you think it's unperceptible, you'll put out signals, body language, whatever, that shows you've got your guard up. And it won't work out. And then you'll say see, it was never going to work so why bother.
I really think what you put out you get back. If you don't trust, don't bother with all of this. I've been so cynical this past year and knew it was the wrong time to think of relationships.
When you're in a better state of mind, feel more confident, and actually want it, then that's when you'll feel and project your best self, and better people will be attracted to that.
I think Julia, who knows you far better than anyone else reading the site, has provided a pretty bang on response. And she knows you well, in fact those damn best friends tend to know us better than we know ourselves sometimes :)
Far be it for me to argue with two women obviously so much wiser than me...I have to agree with them both, if you promise to let it happen, then you have to be honestly open to that happening.
overly content to be single? That's an unusual thing to say...
Julia, I think i'm in a better place now than where i was a year ago. However I am still cynical, is that just my new found nature? A silent observer in too many other relationships (M.S) objectivly look at the issues they have and want no part of it... And it won't work out. And then you'll say see, it was never going to work so why bother I'm fully aware of that, hence my issue! Babe, thanks for being there - love you!
Lucy, friends like Julia are so hard to find, so rare. Very true about knowing us better than knowing ourselves.
Indy - I was expecting you to challenge me on this one. The best I can do is say 'I'll try'
Cibby, I love how i'm spending my time now, its great being able to see my friends and i shudder at the thought of how it used to be, seeing friends only every other month - my bad, my doing. I say overly content because i close off all oppurtunities before they hit me on the head.
Yes, deep breaths and 'just let it happen' :) I know it's against your nature, but you can do it ;) Not everything has to add up on a balance sheet, sometimes we have to accept a person's weakness as long as there is a corresponding strengh to counter it.
What is the weakness that makes you want to dismiss him this early? Is it THAT bad?
nick, i usually say if the numbers dont add up, just walk away. Its worked for me as long as i can remember. sometimes we have to accept a person's weakness as long as there is a corresponding strengh to counter it I like that!
cBabe - A stupid thing, really. Not even worth mentioning
Nuthin' ventured... nuthin' gained... :)
Ant - But, i'm far from perfect! It may be a little premature...
GB - true, true...
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