Life: Guilt

I ‘avoided’ contacting him when I dropped my car off today, thought it’s best I don’t see him, distance is good given our last encounter and the dealing with his estranged wife.

His best friend told me that his father passed away Thursday night / Friday morning. I sent a text, the words couldn’t come out unfortunately it sounded like just a generic ‘condolences’ message. I thought of calling later – no idea what to say, there’s no words to make it better.

L. called later that day and I know it’s wrong, I didn’t mention D’s father – I know she had interaction with the family. She couldn't have this as well! I need to remove myself from the insecurities that are evoked whenever I think about the past.

* whatever "this" is... Emotional turmoil I don't wish to share.