... 'maybe some other time' his words cut right through me, my eyes shot open, I stopped kissing the nape of his neck, my hands paused over his chest, every muscle in my body tensed, I moved away from his body slowly... It's over before it ever began.
We have been flirting for months, a couple of 'good night kisses'. Word across the school yard was that he liked me, for the first time as a recent singleton I felt zest. The novelty didn't disappear, I was excitable. I was told through friends of friends that he's shy, he won’t make the first move - I advised them 'ladies don't make the first move'.
We were at the same function again a couple weeks ago, the usual witty repartee I desire. The flirtatious manner we both exude when in each others company, I catch myself with my eyes fixed on his that little longer.
He was invited to join at the Doncaster Race Day last week, he declined due to expense of the day and work commitments, I took the huge step (little crack in the window really) I replied to a message insinuating I'm free should he wish to ask. Nothing... I found sunnies in my car; I knew they were his due to the recent slump of having men in my car, another opportunity should he wish to take advantage. Nothing...
He was at the birthday party on Monday night; we talked for hours the same provocative, flirtatious manner as our last few meetings. Lots of laughing, lots of drinking - I told him of my embarrassing Bon Jovi story, no judgment. A small group moved on to The Columbian, there were few women as expected, he asked me if I was checking out any of the guys, the alcohol made me do it, I kissed him, I thought it was the most appropriate response, he said, wait until we leave, I felt slightly pushed, but fair enough, it is a guy club.
We jumped in a cab within seconds kissing, caressing, our breaths shallow, he kisses my neck and a tingle took over my body, he ran his hand through my hair and pulled me closer for a passionate deeper kiss, we looked into each others eyes intensely, I kissed the nape of his neck and whispered 'I want to go to bed with you'...
We have been flirting for months, a couple of 'good night kisses'. Word across the school yard was that he liked me, for the first time as a recent singleton I felt zest. The novelty didn't disappear, I was excitable. I was told through friends of friends that he's shy, he won’t make the first move - I advised them 'ladies don't make the first move'.
We were at the same function again a couple weeks ago, the usual witty repartee I desire. The flirtatious manner we both exude when in each others company, I catch myself with my eyes fixed on his that little longer.
He was invited to join at the Doncaster Race Day last week, he declined due to expense of the day and work commitments, I took the huge step (little crack in the window really) I replied to a message insinuating I'm free should he wish to ask. Nothing... I found sunnies in my car; I knew they were his due to the recent slump of having men in my car, another opportunity should he wish to take advantage. Nothing...
He was at the birthday party on Monday night; we talked for hours the same provocative, flirtatious manner as our last few meetings. Lots of laughing, lots of drinking - I told him of my embarrassing Bon Jovi story, no judgment. A small group moved on to The Columbian, there were few women as expected, he asked me if I was checking out any of the guys, the alcohol made me do it, I kissed him, I thought it was the most appropriate response, he said, wait until we leave, I felt slightly pushed, but fair enough, it is a guy club.
We jumped in a cab within seconds kissing, caressing, our breaths shallow, he kisses my neck and a tingle took over my body, he ran his hand through my hair and pulled me closer for a passionate deeper kiss, we looked into each others eyes intensely, I kissed the nape of his neck and whispered 'I want to go to bed with you'...
16 comments:
That was teasing!!! What happened? Did the first paragraph happen after the last or years before...it sounds like after the last, but it teases enough to maybe be years before...
Beautifully written.
ah, the excitement...
was it as earth-shaking as you hoped, or was there disappointment.
Sexual tension is hard to maintain... I've often been in situations where the air is choked with the suggestion of sex, and then it inexplicably dissipates...
I think the issue of 'where' is key here, nothing to do with you. Unless he wants to take it slow, yes, he's shy! There are very few men I would say actually want to take these things slow, he is one of them.
Not the choicest words but, to be fair, it doesn't mean he's not interested.
Give him a little time. Not all guys are as shallow as I am.
Nicely written Natalie :). I like the way you started with the ending, as frustrating as it was. It makes his action or rather inaction more powerful.
As to the "why"? He may just need more time. And I wouldn't take it as lack of interest on his behalf.
Argghh! Hugs for you. Like Dusty said, don't take it as he's not interested, maybe he does want to take things at a slower pace. In which case, he's a keeper. I hope things go well for you.
Indy - Thank you... First paragraph happened after the last. A little pulp fiction-esque
Cubbuano - The tension had been building over several months.
Jules - I was hesitant posting this, you’re the only one I can tell these things to... I know you’re going to ask more questions over our drink tonight and sorry I didn't say anything more to you at the footy. Still love me?
Dusty, Chickybabe, Steph - A little time? I've known him for 15 years! How mush time should a gal give?
I will be seeing him again for another mutual friend’s birthday party in 3 weeks - It may save him from going back into the 'friend' category.
I love a bit of nape kissing :)
If you've known him for 15 years and as you say she's shy, he may need time to break away from the "friends" zone.
It's because he's known you for 15 years he wants to take it slow. Once you cross the Rubicon - you can't turn back, there is no undoing that first intimate encounter.
Good luck for the birthday party, but maybe talk to him about how you feel. *hugs*
Ooh! Time shifting! Tarantino would be proud! ;-)
Compelling reading! ... And sorry you didn't get lucky. Maybe next time? Hehe
Aww.. what an anti-climax. :-(
Was the "maybe some other time" said in a dismissive "I don't see this happening at all" kind of way, or a "holy shit this is going too fast but maybe later, really" kind of way?
I agree with CB and Nick here.
When you've known someone that long then it sets a whole new definition of 'line to cross'.
The thing is, just because he's known you 15 years doesn't mean that he's thought of you in that way.
This is not an easy one.
m - loooovvvee nape kissing, so erotic yet so innocent ;-)
Chickybabe - I had assumed we broke away from the friendship zone a couple months ago
Nick - So true, can't go back. what if one intimate encounter does ruin a 15 year friendship??? Thanks! Hadn't considered that one - put more pressure on me why don't you.
Jeut - Here's hoping ;-)
Reverend - I couldn't work out if it was 'I don't see this happening' or 'whoa! back up, too fast' that's part of my issue...
Dusty - It's not an easy one, men are hard enough to work out without the prospect of jeopardising a friendship along the way.
You think men are hard to figure out!
Try bein in our shoes!
OK. You have a point - look how many times i've done a back flip regarding this one matter.
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