+ Why didn't I follow my gut instinct?
+ Why did I feel the way I did on Friday night when a boy didn’t show interest in me?
+ Why do I let my mothers ranting influence my mood?
+ Why did I need my mother’s comments to be confirmed as irrational?
+ Why did I crave attention on Saturday night?
+ Why did I require acceptance over the weekend?
+ Why was it I felt like I needed a man to have interest in me over the weekend to qualify any self worth?
+ Why did it take me this long to realise it’s all superfluous?
+ Why did I feel the way I did on Friday night when a boy didn’t show interest in me?
+ Why do I let my mothers ranting influence my mood?
+ Why did I need my mother’s comments to be confirmed as irrational?
+ Why did I crave attention on Saturday night?
+ Why did I require acceptance over the weekend?
+ Why was it I felt like I needed a man to have interest in me over the weekend to qualify any self worth?
+ Why did it take me this long to realise it’s all superfluous?
6 comments:
ermmm...because hindsight is an amazingly clear memory of what you believe something was, not as it really was.
We all have moments where self-esteem evaporates, and we seek the approval of others to assist. The effect of your mother on the see-saw that is your self-esteem has to be counteracted by a man's desire in you...
Thanks guys, it all makes sense as the moment passes...
*hugs*
Don't be so tough on yourself, Nat. If you're feeling a little vulnerable, and we all have those days, hearing things from your mum aren't going to help, and I take it she plays a role in your life. It's ok to question and come to a realisation at the end of it, but don't beat yourself over it :).
Thanks CB, sometimes I wish there wasn't any lag time.
Your are Nice. And so is your site! Maybe you need some more pictures. Will return in the near future.
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