Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Emotional

I just saw him; he is now working 2 streets parallel to me. He looks good; he gives me a hug a kiss on the cheek… Why? I’m the girl he doesn’t remember. The hug is wonderful, I exhale deeply, I’m still attracted to him. I don’t want to be. I’ve fallen for his charm once before, not going to let myself do it again. I deleted his email a few weeks ago, I was strong, I didn’t even open it. He still has that affect on me. I can’t control everything. He is too close.

8 comments:

Steph said...

Ohh wow, that's harsh. Good luck with that. I have no advice. :(

ChickyBabe said...

No no no... don't the emotional blackmail creep in. You can do it. 2 streets away is enough to put an emotional distance when you think of all the bad history. Does a kiss on the cheek and a hug undo?

Scorpy said...

My ex's new boyfriend lives two streets over from my unit and ONE street over (I could see his house) from the place I sold last year and 'Stalker Girl' lives even closer....and sends test messages like there is going to bea prize for the most sent!!!!!! Good Luck
PS: My ex still does it for me...my chest constricts everytime I see her but I don't let her see it (I hope)

Nick said...

No easy fix there. Maybe meet him for coffee now and again, spend time with him but don't give in to anything more - either it'll fizzle over time, or you might end up giving him a second chance. Never say never...

audrey said...

Gosh. If you're feeling chest constrictions you need to put serious gaps between the two of you. Also, write a list of all the things that are crap about him and pin it inside your work jacket.

Travel Italy said...

Isn't Love/Lust marvelous. Uncontrollable, engaging and encompassing it helps us know we are alive. Pain and Pleasure both parts of the game. Good luck with this one!

Doll Face said...

Thanks Steph…

cBabe – You’re an eastern suburbs girl, I’m on Riley, he is on Bourke, I saw him on Crown! A kiss and a hug does not make it better, one mistake and that’s it in my books (mistake of that magnitude)

scorpy – I’ll take you up on the stalker swap now, I’ll even throw in a couple of extras!

Nick – Coffee? Not going to happen baby! I know I’ll see him again at a birthday party end July (mutual friend) that’s enough. I turn into a giggling mess when I’m around this guy and I have since the first time I met him approximately 4 years ago.

Audrey – I have put a huge strain on what ever our friendship/relationship was, I have declined several BBQ invitations and drinks at the pub invites etc (mutual friends) I know how to protect my little heart.

David – So undeniably true… unfortunately the pain outweighs and outlasts the pleasure in this instance…

ChickyBabe said...

Ugh... I feel for you. Just think strong, Nat. One day at a time...